It’s taken me a while to sit down and reflect on recent events following the unjust killing of George Floyd, but I knew I needed to write something about how I’ve been feeling because it’s been painful and my heart is hurting for the Black community.
I’ve sat in my anger, tears, and grief for the past two weeks, but I have also sat in my guilt. As a POC ally, I do like to think that I am anti-racist—after all, I have gone through my fair share of racism as a woman of color. However, I know I can do better. I feel guilty for not speaking up when Ahmaud Arbery and Breonna Taylor were killed for no reason. I feel guilty that every time a Black person is senselessly murdered just for the color of their skin in America, I feel numb because it happens far too often. I feel guilty that I have forgotten the names of so many others who have been killed. I need to check myself and hold myself accountable because now more than ever we need to be allies for our Black brothers and sisters. I need to do a better job of showing up and speaking out against the injustices that have been happening to the Black community for far too long. Silence is complicity.
Silence is complicity.
What I have learned is that I have so much more to learn. I need to be sitting with my discomfort and sadness when I watch movies and television shows like When They See Us and 13th. I need to educate myself on what it means to truly be anti-racist by reading books such as How to Be An Antiracist by Ibram X. Kendi. I need to be a better ally and this is my pledge to do so.
If you are in a financial position to donate, I strongly recommend donating to the following organizations below:
- Black Visions Collective
- Campaign Zero / 8 Can’t Wait
- Color of Change
- Equal Justice Initiative
- NAACP Legal Defense Fund
- Reclaim the Block
- The Bail Project