Yes I’m Changing

It has been a few months since I’ve written a blog post and I spent the summer reflecting and quite honestly changing. A lot has happened: I took time to read and educate myself following the racial justice uprising around Black Lives Matter; I enrolled in graduate school; I ended my job and started a new one; I celebrated another year around the sun; and I’ve been developing new habits to care for my mental health, including cultivating an indoor plant collection.

Looking back on March when lockdown first began, I cannot recognize who I was. In the past 7 months, I’ve been trying to embrace slowing down and doing the inner work to tend to my personal needs and how I feel. There have been a lot of days where it’s been tough. Hell, yesterday I woke up and just felt depressed for no reason. There are so many great things happening in my life, why should I feel sad? But that’s the thing: it’s okay to feel sad or negative because the point is to acknowledge it and let it go to make space for feelings of joy and happiness. You can’t experience joy without sadness. Lately, I’ve been learning about sinking into gratitude and I’ve started journaling. It’s helped to put a lot into perspective and help me recognize the little moments to be grateful for.

When I was in high school, I had a best friend at the time who told me she was the exact same person that she was in elementary school. I remember thinking about how weird that was. How was it at 17 you were the same person you were at 11? Sure, you can like the same music and hold onto the same material possessions from those times, but to not feel that you have changed or shifted your mindset was odd to me, even at 17. I’ve learned that it’s okay to change. I’m no longer friends with that girl and quite frankly a lot of other people because I have changed over the years and did not feel they wanted to grow with me. And that’s okay. Throughout the summer, I reflected on what kind of friend I am and how I could be better about reaching out because friendships require hard work. I’d like to think that the friends I have now support my personal growth and we’re on a similar journey of self-improvement.

Just as summer has come and gone and the weather is now transitioning to fall, I too am reflecting on the changes I’ve made in the last few months. Even though 2020 has been a complete shitshow of a year, it’s helped me grow in ways I never expected to. And for that, I am grateful for feeling all of it and being present.

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What I Spend in a Week: Quarantine Edition

Now that everyone is spending more time at home, I’ve realized that my spending has changed—for better or worse. On one hand, I have not been spending as much money on buying food from establishments, especially coffee or lunch on a weekday. However, my online shopping spending habits seem to be going up. So, I decided to do a little experiment to see what I would spend in a week. Continue reading “What I Spend in a Week: Quarantine Edition”

Steps I’ve Taken to Care for My Mental Health

Mental health is a journey that I am still trying to navigate and understand. It’s never easy to truly comprehend what might be wrong beneath the surface, but over time I have found ways to take care of myself and be gentle when confronting my inner turmoil. May is Mental Health Awareness Month and in lieu of that, I wanted to share a few tips I’ve learned along the way to take care of my mental health. Continue reading “Steps I’ve Taken to Care for My Mental Health”

How to Stay Motivated During Uninspiring Times

It’s no secret that we are living through challenging times right now with staying at home and feeling anxious about a global pandemic. It’s easy to slip into negative thoughts and sit in our feelings, however it’s important to remember, just as Roman biographer Cornelius Nepos said: “After darkness comes light.” These are my tips to stay motivated even when I don’t feel like it. Continue reading “How to Stay Motivated During Uninspiring Times”

Embracing ‘Yin’ in a Primarily ‘Yang’ World

You may be familiar with the yin yang symbol and know that it may symbolize harmony, and as most of the world is in self-quarantine right now, there is a noticeable shift in the usual energy of the world from being incredibly busy to staying only at home. Rather than both yin and yang existing together, it is imbalanced and as a result has changed our daily lives. But, it all doesn’t have to be bad—let me explain. Continue reading “Embracing ‘Yin’ in a Primarily ‘Yang’ World”

10 Indoor Activities to Actually Practice Social Distancing

With majority of the world on lockdown and people in self-quarantine because of COVID-19, now is the time to stay calm, wash your hands, and stay inside—keyword: inside. It’s even now being advised to keep away from national parks, as people are seeking fresh air and a change of scenery in the great outdoors, however it is not a good practice of social distancing. So, here are the social distancing activities that I’ve been doing to maintain my sanity and keep indoors. Continue reading “10 Indoor Activities to Actually Practice Social Distancing”

I Did the 1 Thing That Scared Me

They say you should do one thing every day that scares you, and if I know one thing for sure about myself it’s that I hate to be in a position where I am brand new and need to figure things out. The one particular scenario that scared me most were workout classes. I used to psych myself out with dreaded thoughts like, “What if I can’t keep up” or “What if I look dumb,” and completely refused to try out any class, until one day I had another thought: what if all of this is just in my head? Continue reading “I Did the 1 Thing That Scared Me”